Hello everyone! It has been a while since i last updated my blog again. Hows everyone been? The year is coming to an end soon, another year just went by so quickly. Soon i will be twenty-five, I will have lived a quarter of a century. Other than assignments, i have been thinking quite alot about next year. Plans for my life, OCF, and my thoughts on some issues.
Now where shall i start? It is going to be a really long entry. So i hope you guys be patient with me.
Lets start with my thoughts. Recently i have been thinking about what i would like to do next year, it will be my final year here in Murdoch University. I was thinking that i should be more involved with what i am studying and helping out in production areas whenever i can. With that means most of my time will go into it, and thus i will have to give up certain other aspects of my life. In this sense, i would think that service in ministry might get affected.
As i thought more about it, the more i want to be equip in my area of expertise. Sometimes in school, i do feel that i am lagging behind, everyone seems to know what they are doing, and there i am struggling with work and theories. It does get really frustrating, especially after getting back my results, it is like adding oil to fire.
So in frustration, i cry out to God. I really just keep asking him everyday what i should do, and how i should carry on. Job has been my source of motivation. The idea of asking God what He wants. I really did not know what i should do, i just wanted God's direction. I just wanted Him to show me where to go, God for a moment felt so distant. This went on for quite a few weeks, and still nothing, then, during homegroup one night, God answered me. Not really the answer i was looking for.
If you guys have your bible with you, would you like to turn to James 4:1-10. I kinda got scolded. James here was scolding the twelve tribes in the Dispersion. They were asking God for things that are for their own passion. He was asking them to stop being hypocrites or double minded snakes and remember who they are suppose to be serving.
As i thought more about it, i questioned myself. What is the motivation that i would like to be more involved and what are the reasons for it. Being honest to one self is not easy. As i thought further, i realise i am doing all these because of my own passions, my desire of wanting to be good, to be seen a pro by others. Pride was my greatest enemy! v10 says therefore humble yourselve before the Lord and He will exalt you.
Well some of you guys might think its foolish, that i should make my own decisions with what i want to do in my life. As i think about it, i do make my own decisions in my life, only that my purpose is not for self glory but to glorify my LORD; my saviour and friend. With this, i know what was God answer to me already, and i decided how to go on next year.
Now moving along to my plans for next semester. If given the opporunity to help out in production, i will not hesitate and go for it. This is not for my own self glory, but so that i can equip myself better for the future when i go into ministry. If it does not come, then i will not chase after it either, but build my own knowledge first. Now that i have learn to take things seriously, next is to learn not to take things so shallow, but be more in depth with things.
Next i would have to start thinking about what i want to do after university.
Now in regards to OCF, i wonder what will it be like next semester. I was thinking, serving in ministry is not easy, it is very easy to burn out. When we get discouraged, we tend to just give up after. Now i think there is where we find joy, knowing that we suffer for God and also knowing that He is building us up to be good worksman for him.
Next year OCF Murdoch's theme will be AGAPE LOVE. Now we split AGAPE into acryonames. A for Assurance, G for Giving, A for Acceptance, P for Passion, E for Endurance. So interesting, i have to write Bible study materials on it. It will be kinda exciting. I need help~~~~~
okie what else am i going to do in OCF next semester, well its still uncertain, but i will keep you guys updated.
Now at the end of this entry, i realise how immature my thinking is.
Now where shall i start? It is going to be a really long entry. So i hope you guys be patient with me.
Lets start with my thoughts. Recently i have been thinking about what i would like to do next year, it will be my final year here in Murdoch University. I was thinking that i should be more involved with what i am studying and helping out in production areas whenever i can. With that means most of my time will go into it, and thus i will have to give up certain other aspects of my life. In this sense, i would think that service in ministry might get affected.
As i thought more about it, the more i want to be equip in my area of expertise. Sometimes in school, i do feel that i am lagging behind, everyone seems to know what they are doing, and there i am struggling with work and theories. It does get really frustrating, especially after getting back my results, it is like adding oil to fire.
So in frustration, i cry out to God. I really just keep asking him everyday what i should do, and how i should carry on. Job has been my source of motivation. The idea of asking God what He wants. I really did not know what i should do, i just wanted God's direction. I just wanted Him to show me where to go, God for a moment felt so distant. This went on for quite a few weeks, and still nothing, then, during homegroup one night, God answered me. Not really the answer i was looking for.
If you guys have your bible with you, would you like to turn to James 4:1-10. I kinda got scolded. James here was scolding the twelve tribes in the Dispersion. They were asking God for things that are for their own passion. He was asking them to stop being hypocrites or double minded snakes and remember who they are suppose to be serving.
As i thought more about it, i questioned myself. What is the motivation that i would like to be more involved and what are the reasons for it. Being honest to one self is not easy. As i thought further, i realise i am doing all these because of my own passions, my desire of wanting to be good, to be seen a pro by others. Pride was my greatest enemy! v10 says therefore humble yourselve before the Lord and He will exalt you.
Well some of you guys might think its foolish, that i should make my own decisions with what i want to do in my life. As i think about it, i do make my own decisions in my life, only that my purpose is not for self glory but to glorify my LORD; my saviour and friend. With this, i know what was God answer to me already, and i decided how to go on next year.
Now moving along to my plans for next semester. If given the opporunity to help out in production, i will not hesitate and go for it. This is not for my own self glory, but so that i can equip myself better for the future when i go into ministry. If it does not come, then i will not chase after it either, but build my own knowledge first. Now that i have learn to take things seriously, next is to learn not to take things so shallow, but be more in depth with things.
Next i would have to start thinking about what i want to do after university.
Now in regards to OCF, i wonder what will it be like next semester. I was thinking, serving in ministry is not easy, it is very easy to burn out. When we get discouraged, we tend to just give up after. Now i think there is where we find joy, knowing that we suffer for God and also knowing that He is building us up to be good worksman for him.
Next year OCF Murdoch's theme will be AGAPE LOVE. Now we split AGAPE into acryonames. A for Assurance, G for Giving, A for Acceptance, P for Passion, E for Endurance. So interesting, i have to write Bible study materials on it. It will be kinda exciting. I need help~~~~~
okie what else am i going to do in OCF next semester, well its still uncertain, but i will keep you guys updated.
Now at the end of this entry, i realise how immature my thinking is.
