Hello people! How has everyone been? it has been awhile since i updated this blog. haha! Sorry think i really getting bored with this blogging thing. Anyway i decided to put this post up here because God spoke to me during Sunday morning message and i felt like sharing this with you guys.
This past week has not been the best, if fact, i think it was one of the worst few i have had in the year. I fell sick, had alot of shoots to go for, essay to write and readings to catch up on. But praise God that i got through all of that. But what was worst were my thoughts on service to God. For those who do not know, i am serving in this ministry called OCF. Overseas Christian Fellowship.
For the past week, i was utterly disappointed, discouraged and disgusted with the OCF members. They really have been a huge disappointment when i look at our service to our Lord. I guess i asked the question what is a fellowship, then i look at the members, and i see how selfish each one can be. They are only interested in their own life, things that they would like to do, without considering others before them. Not only so, they cant keep what they have set out to do. Its not just one or two, its like... almost all of them.
So it reached the point i ask God, how. I really wanted to just give up the fellowship, i think it really affected my spiritual health for the week. I mean if everyone is selfish, fine, i will be selfish too and guard my own time and do things i would like to do. But at the same time, i still love God's people and i really do not want to see them just slowly waste their life away.
It had been a constant struggle and God answered me. He gave me Ephesians 4:1-6. Our morning speaker shared on this verses. Paul reminded the Ephesians to live a life worthy of the calling, and with complete humble and gentle; being patient, bearing with one another in love. Making every effort to keep the unity of the Spirit. When he read it loud, i was stunned for a moment. When he went on to explain, why Paul ask the people to do such with humility and gentleness, it really struck me hard.
He gave the example, everyone has their own way of living, everyone have their own preferences, and everyone has their own reasons for doing things. We cannot force someone else to fall into what we want out of them and make them live the way we want. Because in that itself is selfish. He shared about a youth pastor who helped grew a youth group to 200 people, but when it reached that point, the church fired him and hired another pastor to take over. Now it benefited the church as it grew to 400 youths, but the youth pastor was so discouraged that he got fired when he sees his ministry growing and stopped serving. Now is it right that the youth pastor was fired for something that God has bless? Alot of times we see things in our own way without looking at how other see things and because of our own pride, we think we are right.
Where complete humility is important, because we have to humble ourselve down, knowing that God is in control, that no matter the circumstance, it is God who will bring us through. Then when you understand complete humility then you will want to practise complete gentleness, because no matter how many times people may disappoint you, you would still want to teach them and help them. If you are not truely gentle, you will bear a grudge and not do it the Godly way. So be patient and bear with each other in love. =)
I want to see God's kingdom grow and though they may be a disappointment in my life, i believe God will change them. Now i am reminded that i am not doing this alone, God is the one changing them, my job is to trust and be faithful in doing God's work.
Take care all of you. Hope to see you soon.
This past week has not been the best, if fact, i think it was one of the worst few i have had in the year. I fell sick, had alot of shoots to go for, essay to write and readings to catch up on. But praise God that i got through all of that. But what was worst were my thoughts on service to God. For those who do not know, i am serving in this ministry called OCF. Overseas Christian Fellowship.
For the past week, i was utterly disappointed, discouraged and disgusted with the OCF members. They really have been a huge disappointment when i look at our service to our Lord. I guess i asked the question what is a fellowship, then i look at the members, and i see how selfish each one can be. They are only interested in their own life, things that they would like to do, without considering others before them. Not only so, they cant keep what they have set out to do. Its not just one or two, its like... almost all of them.
So it reached the point i ask God, how. I really wanted to just give up the fellowship, i think it really affected my spiritual health for the week. I mean if everyone is selfish, fine, i will be selfish too and guard my own time and do things i would like to do. But at the same time, i still love God's people and i really do not want to see them just slowly waste their life away.
It had been a constant struggle and God answered me. He gave me Ephesians 4:1-6. Our morning speaker shared on this verses. Paul reminded the Ephesians to live a life worthy of the calling, and with complete humble and gentle; being patient, bearing with one another in love. Making every effort to keep the unity of the Spirit. When he read it loud, i was stunned for a moment. When he went on to explain, why Paul ask the people to do such with humility and gentleness, it really struck me hard.
He gave the example, everyone has their own way of living, everyone have their own preferences, and everyone has their own reasons for doing things. We cannot force someone else to fall into what we want out of them and make them live the way we want. Because in that itself is selfish. He shared about a youth pastor who helped grew a youth group to 200 people, but when it reached that point, the church fired him and hired another pastor to take over. Now it benefited the church as it grew to 400 youths, but the youth pastor was so discouraged that he got fired when he sees his ministry growing and stopped serving. Now is it right that the youth pastor was fired for something that God has bless? Alot of times we see things in our own way without looking at how other see things and because of our own pride, we think we are right.
Where complete humility is important, because we have to humble ourselve down, knowing that God is in control, that no matter the circumstance, it is God who will bring us through. Then when you understand complete humility then you will want to practise complete gentleness, because no matter how many times people may disappoint you, you would still want to teach them and help them. If you are not truely gentle, you will bear a grudge and not do it the Godly way. So be patient and bear with each other in love. =)
I want to see God's kingdom grow and though they may be a disappointment in my life, i believe God will change them. Now i am reminded that i am not doing this alone, God is the one changing them, my job is to trust and be faithful in doing God's work.
Take care all of you. Hope to see you soon.
